my thoughts is really in a whirl..God is viewed always as the first cause, a supreme being which created us all for the catholics, a god nature for the deists. religion sure makes this all more confusing…when i think about this and look at it more closely, they are just believing in one god. but how about the teaching of other religions? are this just crap invented by people? i’ll take the bible for example, i viewed jesus christ as a philosopher (for him if we care for others we will be save, we will be rewarded with an eternal life in heaven.) i know the history of christianity i’m a christian, but i find it unfair to baptize us when we were babies and we don’t know how to make a decision yet. and now that i’m old enough to choose my own belief i cannot entrap myself with my religion.

some scientists calls god her and not him, because for them god is mother earth. which is not surprising because they are scientist which rely on science and have been trying to prove ever since that natural laws are the answer to all our supernatural questions. but isn’t god the creator of nature?
and with this question i come up with another idea. but first i will tell you something about us humans. and i want you to open your mind and try to reason things out.

Then God said, “Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.” So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them. – (Gen. 1:26-27 NIV)
our life is not only a matter of connection with god or supreme being. the statement above, if you will read between the lines, supposed we are created of the same real meaning/fundamental nature/essence as god. and i’m sure you know, we are essentially made up of cells. everything in our world is, plants, animals, humans, things… we are all like god, or in other words “conciousness”.
god is a creator. aren’t we? we’ve seen the evolution of time…we’ve witnessed the inventions coming forth day after day, we’ve transform our whole planet that no one can hamper in the beginning of time, now we can see the universe, we can measure the distance of moon and sun. and we continue on going forward, the only limit is ourselves. which send us back to my question.. isn’t god the creator of nature? or god is nature?
but saying this doesn’t mean i whole heartedly believe it. because we are all assuming no matter how we dedicate ourselves into understanding this. no one really knows. like i said in the diest site, this is a very complex matter and we have a very little time. one thing is certain though, we will all die and find out.

sometimes, i wish i never learned this things. i envy children…because they are innocent about the world. their minds are uncloudy and they don’t need to know how they came to be. well, i don’t need to know if i want to, but i find it illogical to live without knowing where your life and everything else you are living in came from. i don’t want to be just a naked ape. but sometimes, at night when there is nothing else to think but these crazy thoughts, and i feel like i’m loosing my head out of thinking but actually going nowhere, i think it’s better to just be a naked ape after all.



Is it too much to ask?

The broken promises, lies, shattered hopes, painful memories…heartaches.

Once upon a time might be a fairy tale that never exists… an imagination that never became real. An action which never took place and never will. I was blinded by my high standards. I kept on holding back. Never try hard to do things I’d longed to, even before. I’ve lost my chance, lost all the countless opportunities… because I’ve been too absorbed on my own world. I’ve cling too much on a fairy tale, that I’ve lost the chance of a happily-ever-after.

Trying so hard. Always looking for more. Trusting so much about fate. But not actually falling.

At the end of the day, it all comes back to my fragmented reality.


that fleeting glance i always do but you never notice


That single thought that fades with your consciousness as you close your eyes to sleep. The fear of flying because you know in any moment comes falling. The kind of thought that rob you off your own attention. Wanting something so much that every time you blink you can see it and every breath you draw is a second passing of you deciding whether you want it more than you are afraid of it.

If. Me, coming to you now and telling you that this is what I felt, why I pushed you away..if it would have change anything. Or maybe this is the price I pay for cowering to the ghost of myself that should never exist, to the monster I built inside my head to the fears that should have been my strength. Maybe if you didn’t give up on me, if you become the man who would fight for me even I pushed you away a thousand times before and a thousand times more. Then maybe there wouldn’t be what ifs. What if?



Something for your ears

im a lady gaga fan. at first i thought she was being ridiculous and like any other artists nowadays who are all for fame. but then i realize, she was the way she is, not afraid to show her skin and doesn’t care about what the world thinks of her. one of the things she did that made me look up to her, aside from writing good music, is this. go check and why i have come to love lady gaga 🙂


Calling all witches!

Dear witches,

I miss you guys so much!

I cannot remember the last time I’ve seen you all! It was a very long time ago, for sure. So, I’ve created this blog site just so we can share what’s happening to us when we’re not around. I mean, this blog site must contain every little single thing about you. If I’m not busy, maybe I can edit it and add a few spices so our blogs would look good and perhaps, one day, it’ll become famous! Since everyone of you has their own summer, I thought maybe you’ll have your full time in updating this blog.

See you on our Slumber Party 2012!

PS: Don’t forget to put Tags when you want to post something. You can add “Categories” if you like. Just go to Posts>Categories.

PPS: Guys, if you want to edit our site. Feel free to do so.

♥ Amber